Wishes

 

I placed my candle among hundreds of others that night, secretly whispered my prayers to the universe.

Even if God does or does not exist,

I wished that the sky above, the soil I stepped on, the air that I breathed would conspire…

…to fill my days with happiness

…to protect my heart so it does not hurt any longer

…put on a shield, make me even tougher, do whatever

…just save me from the bad things in life.

And let this heart of mine only understands two things,

to love sincerely and to cherish everything in life.

By then, I wouldn’t have room for hatred nor would I bother to let hurtful things eat my heart out.

I only have one heart to give,

and I do not know any other way,

other than to love them all the best I can.

 

 

Over a glass of water, in between my favorite playlists, 4 minutes to midnight…

 

 

 

…here I write this. Something about you.

It was somewhere around May last year, when I randomly opened one of the doors in my office, hoping to find an empty meeting room. I apologized immediately right after, because instead of finding a meeting place, I intruded one. But in the middle of those passing seconds, there you were, with the cutest smirk I have ever seen. So cute that I had to run to my closest colleague and told her all about it, ’cause I couldn’t contain my smiling face all to myself.

And that was how I first met you.

I spent months holding back my feelings ’cause I thought I would never be special to your eyes. Not your kinda girl, I said to myself.

But turns out, you became the sweetest thing that ever happened to my life.

And you made me the happiest girl.

Though I say this with such naivete, I just want you to know that even now we’re thousand miles apart, you’re still the closest thing I called home.

And nothing, makes me happier, than seeing you living your life the way you want it, like how you always taught me to

So off you go my dear…

With any luck, I’ll be seeing you again soon.

But even if that day never happens, you will always remain special to my heart.

‘Cause you’re wonderful.

And whenever you think of me,

I think of you.

 

 

 

Old Poem

Ngubek-ngubek tulisan lama dan menemukan puisi yang gue bikin 2 tahun lalu pas lagi punya pacar, mwahahaha… Mungkin buat yang baca blog gue yang lama udah pernah baca ini… Anyway… intinya, gue sangat mencintai kata-kata, apapun bentuk rangkaiannya, dan gue juga sesekali suka nulis puisi, kutipan sendiri, atau sekedar tulisan pendek kalo sedang dalam mood tertentu. It’s a good way to vent

So I just wanna share my old poem with you guys, despite the irrelevance to my life now

“US”

When I can relate to those sweet love songs, and even the corny ones make perfect sense…
When we can’t stop to bug each other every now and then…
When we know that our best friends would probably throw up hearing our lovey dovey conversations, yet we don’t care.
When I feel irrelevant with the world and you’re the only one I can relate to…
When you write notes of days we spent together, and I made secret blogs just to save every details of our chats… and poems I couldn’t stop to write…
When we wonder if it’s just the syndrome of a new couple…
When we could project where this is going to be on the second day we’re together…
When both of us being so persistent to fight for this…
When we start to care less about bad and cynical comments…
When I end up thinking about you during my boring bus trip just when I thought I could skip you a bit…
When you turned into the sweetest man one could ever imagine…
And when this what you used to call “a senseless bitch” softened up…
When we become the best version of ourselves because of each other’s presence…
When strangers would prolly get sick of reading this pointless poem…
When people might think that we rush things…
When “can’t get enough” literally means can’t get enough…
When we don’t ever wanna lose this…

That is probably, how much in love we are.

And still baby, nobody will understand…

Chase to Betterment

Be with the one that makes you smarter.
Be with the one that makes you laugh.
Be with the one that makes you happier.
Be with the one that let you be yourself.
Be with the one that treats you just the way he wants to be treated.

Be with the one that knows how to make you feel,

Loved.

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